My Sweet Sixteen was great. I love birthdays and always try to make a big deal out of them. This year is my Champagne year... 28 on the 28th. I'm excited I'm not weighing myself down with- you wanted to be smaller - type thoughts.
The first fall is the hardest ( the first cut is the deepest... baby I know ) I'm getting up slowly and trying to make it work again. Tools I need to have in place are. 1. Making meals ahead of time.
2. Having food in the house
3. Not having cash on me
4.Putting a sticker on my cards saying
" do you need this "
That's enough for now I guess. The joy of starting something new has warn off. I am not on the high I started with. The struggle is the find the daily high and keep the push up.
I want to be happy and healthy but I think its hard to remember that when you feel like shit and want to be comfortable. People make New Years Resolutions all of the time and hardly anyone keeps with it. People do not like change. I'm not any different. I would cut off my toe instead of going through this if I thought it would work.
I need help. I need someone to help me not give up. I have so much support around me and so many people wanting me to succeed. The challenge is myself. If you asked me right now, "what would you do to beat this addiction?" I would say ANYTHING!!!! Yet I have doubts right now that I'm going to get through the day without a slip up.
I believe in positive affirmations.
I am effortlessly going to spend today making great decisions. I am in control.
OK team wish me luck.
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