Day 15. So Hard to Wean.

That title is in reference to cheese, once again. But I won't dwell on that too much today as it was moreso for the sake of the rhyme scheme.
I have a couple new things to pay attention to, in my next phase of conscious eating:
1. be careful and conservative of my liquid calories
2. set an evening cut-off time

I have been drinking green tea with apple juice in the mornings. I love it, but even though it's 100% apple juice, it's still shunned of its fiber and sending a spike to my blood sugar. I plan to reduce how much I add to my green tea, to begin with anyway. And I am not usually too bad with late-night eating, but if we have company over and the group gets the idea for food/snacks at 11pm, I've got to be a little stronger and decline.

I've joined a 10 week weight loss program at work. Kind of on the sly, as I felt people in my training group would criticize me. Participants had to meet in a room to be weighed and measured, and to my surprise, everyone there was around my size. I then had to feel the hypocrisy of thinking, "she doesn't need to be here" and "omg I don't want these skinny girls to know my weight!". But really, they all have the right to be there, as much as I do, and I'm using the challenge as an external pressure to achieve my goals. Maybe if it isn't all internal I'll be a little nicer to myself? We'll see. I'm a sadistic creature who is most motivated by stress and competition. I should have been a lawyer like my parents incessantly suggested.

Start weight? Higher than I thought! But that's OK. It's a start weight, and still within healthy guidelines (141lbs, to relieve the suspense). I'm confident it will all come together with time.   good - bad + patience = success.