Day 36. Amen Sister.

I'm with Paige. Bitch moan.

I'm getting frustrated and sick with myself. I feel like crap and when I feel like crap I don't want to do any activity. I know if I just did activity I'd feel better. How to MAKE myself do something is what I'm losing at.
 I know what I need to do but I feel I'm making the mistake of doing all or nothing and getting lost in the nothing.
Maybe I need to take it back a bit one thing at a time I don't know. I do know I gained a pound this week. That's annoying.
I'm caught between forgive yourself focus on the positive and move on and getting very angry and frustrated with myself that I'm caught in a very familiar cycle.

I think I need to make the decision to move on. I can't fix the past and getting caught up in feeling like I'm failing is just going to make me fail.

Today I made protein pancakes for breakfast I started great :) This week I'm going to focus on not eating when I get home from work ( 3 am ) and adding in excersise wherever I can ( stairs anyone? )

I know I'm putting pressure on myself to lose weight. I can't deny that it is important to me. I've been telling myself to start treating myself as if I am my ideal weight that may sound silly but I've always planned on doing things when I'm a certain weight i.e.: get a haircut,do my nails, wear more make-up dress better....the list goes on.  I re-read that and I see how silly it is.


Let's stop being so silly.