Day 46. Learning How to Eat.

whoa whoa you say... I knows how to eat sista.


I thought I knew how to eat too. I didn't- I knew how to starve and I knew how to stuff. I'm re-learning what it is to eat.

I've tried very hard to throw away any deadlines and weight loss goals... and that is HARD. I'm coming to learn to accept where I am now. That is hard as well. If I had a choice I would be a smaller weight. I don't have the choice to snap my fingers and fix that but I do have the choice to start enjoying the life I am living in this second.  I can only assume when I stop hiding I'll stop needing the weight to hide.

So I'm learning to eat again. Eating normal size meals, when I'm hungry, and not eating when I'm not.

I still steer away from dairy,wheat, and sugar but I let little things in without beating myself up.

I have a loooooooong way to go... but I am doing much better. It's only day 46 get off my back.