I'm not dying. I know, I know it's only day four.... but I'm not dying. I have spent a lot of money turning my fridge and cupboard into an organic/healthy food eaters dream and as I type this I have a gluten free/sugar free/dairy free loaf of bread in the oven and I'm eating a bowl of spinach butternut squash soup and a Zevia pop. Zevia is no sugar no sodium pop made with stevia,its a treat -healthy as pop will ever get !
Again I say - I'm not dying. I'm not stuffing my face I'm not sneaking in junk food after a salad I'm not going to bed hungry I'm not snapping at some poor soul because I'm sugar deprived - I'm good. I'm great. I'm scared. I am enjoying the ride right now but some little voice in my head is saying you won't lose weight like this! You need to eat less if you want to lose weight !! You need to be hungry!!!! Keep eating like this and you'll only lose a pound a week maybe LESS. I know what you are going to say readers (Mom and Paige) a pound a week is great ! Maybe it is maybe its not. It shouldn't matter at all I am on a mission to be healthy and happy right? It still does matter to me and all of my pep talks and happy feelings haven't sent it away yet.
Here is the good. I am feeling great already. I am full of energy and good spirits.
The bad. I am scared and still procrastinating on a lot of goals. ( including finishing my Jessica page...er... or starting it. )
Conclusion? I am not dying. I feel like I can do this. I have some effing hot bread coming out of the oven and I am going to have some without feeling quilty. Take that voice in my head !
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