We're in the 80s!! Which is almost 100! Which is almost 1/3 of the year!!
As you can see, my mind can get ahead of itself. Trying to stay in the here and now.
And the here and now is, I just went on a binge-bender that is severely hurting my chances of a decent weigh-in on Monday. :( I don't know why I did it. But it's been the first time in a while that I have, so the self-sabotage aspect is all the more apparent. Why would I do anything, in these final challenge days, to make myself potentially NOT win? I love winning. Love it. And by being the best, not narrowly skirting by.
I weigh in on Monday. I am going to do my cleanse Saturday and Sunday. Today, however, I am making myself list off what I threw into my body over the past 2 days:
-coconut cream donut
-old fashioned donut
-bagel with light cream cheese
-fast food breakfast sandwich with egg
-pizza (maybe 7 pieces between last night & the night before)
-french fries
-a bottle of milk (the day after I said I hadn't been drinking it)
-2 bottled sugary espresso & milk beverages
-microwave buttered popcorn
I've eaten some decent things as well, such as the stuffed bell peppers, salads and homemade popcorn...but these were all extra things. All things not required as meals to sustain myself throughout the day. All things that can't be burned off in an hour long workout. Friiiiiggggg I'm mad at myself.
So today, a cleanse. I have $20 to my name and I will get whatever fruit and veggies I can and make some vegetable broth to sip on, with fruit for the fiber and when I get really hungry. I'm a little worried about water loading too, but as I've still been drinking large amounts of water on these crappy days, my system should still be processing it well.
Should be an interesting weekend.
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