Day 88. Layers.

I've come to see my fat as layers.

I am covered in layers. I can see thick rings around me. I can see the core isn't a big fat blob. I can see these things. I now need to work for them.

I am blown away that it has been almost 100 days since we started this. I didn't diet. I didn't binge like crazy I for sure had a few moments where I ate too much but it wasn't the uncontrollable good-god-almighty-I'm-sick moments I've had in my past.

I like eating healthy and I don't like exercising . I live in cycles.

These things are all true. I also want to get rid of these layers. I'm ready for a little hard work.

I'm about to move into a phase where I am going to try to get this shit off and not put the crazy guilt and pressure of dieting and saying no to myself. There HAS to be a balance of feeding myself but also saying no to myself. I need to be smarter than my dieting ninja.

So the time has come to work for it. NOT diet, NOT say no to everything, NOT kill myself at the gym. Just work for it.